Beautifully Broken

You know I often write when I am on a mountain top.  When everything is going great and I can see how God is moving!

Well, this time is different.  I have been going through some difficult times and I kind of felt like God left me!  Now, I know He never does and He never will.  But do I really believe that?  Do I wake up every morning expecting God to be waiting for me to talk to Him?  I can’t say that I have been lately.  I am feeling very ashamed.  After all, I just spent the last year of my life testifying how God uses our weaknesses for His glory.  Come on, now, is not the time to have setbacks!  People may think it was an act or a cry for attention.

I had dreams that my public speaking career would take off.  And, well, that has not happened.  So, now is definitely not the time to experience hardships.  Who in their right mind is going to ask a woman who is not only is in a wheelchair, has a speech impairment, and now, is experiencing a dry season.  The world says, “ha, ha!  No one is going to want you.”

But this evening as we were driving home from church, I felt God tugging on my heart.  I heard Jesus ask, “Who do you say that I am?” Immediately, I thought, “Jesus, you’re my redeemer!  My hope.  My Salvation!  You’re mighty to save!”

Folks, we don’t have to have it all together all of the time.  We will experience hardships.  But the beautiful thing is God uses our weaknesses and our doubts to shine!  My cracked vessel allows his love to overflow to the world! Don’t let hard times rule your days.  Surround yourself with love.  Get in the Bible! Sing out from the depths of your soul! Talk to Him!

Beautifully broken,

Angela